Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Renewed Relationships

"Prayer is a relationship; half the job is mine. If I want transformation, but can't even be bothered to articulate what, exactly, I'm aiming for, how will it ever occur? Half the benefit of prayer is in the asking itself, in the offering of a clearly posed and well-considered intention. If you don't have this, all your pleas and desires are boneless, floppy, inert; they swirl at your feet in a cold fog and never lift."
— Elizabeth Gilbert

Yep, its been a while. What can I say? I am the Queen of Procrastination and the DIVA of Delay. A LOT has happened since my last post (this is becoming a pattern), but as always I am extremely grateful for every lesson, tear and joy that God has allowed and continues to allow me to experience. I am in yet another transitioning period in my life, one that tackles both my personal and professional self. I am excited, anxious and slightly nervous of what lies ahead. Nonetheless, I am CERTAIN there is an abundance of blessings on the way. Why? Because God said so!!

For the fourth time in 5 months, I am reading Elizabeth Gilbert's 'Eat, Pray, Love.' Yes it is that good!! This book is soooo amazing, and has helped me understand and realize a lot of things about myself. Of course I became super ecstatic upon discovering that it has been turned into a movie starring none other than Miss Julia Roberts!! (Love her!) Thus prompting me to pick up the book for the 4th time to refresh myself before the August 13th premiere. If you have never read this great story, I urge you with every fiber of my being to do so. Never have I read a book that had me laughing out loud (literally!), agreeing, praying, crying and talking back page after page.

Although I have never been married, divorced, tempted by the annoying itch of parenthood, traveled around the world nor wrote a book, I see myself completely in Elizabeth Gilbert, and appreciates her honesty to herself as well as to others.

The above quote is only one of many throughout the book that just jumps out at you. One of the greatest blessings of this read is that, while I had been dying to read it for years, I finally began reading 'Eat, Pray, Love' at the exact time that I began fiending for a more close and in depth relationship with God. Little did I know that this would open my eyes to so much more, and help me dive into my journey.

There are many underlying messages with in this read, and I hope that you take some time to read and enjoy the reflection of a woman's journey to understand and know herself.

Not only have I been on a focused journey to renew my relationship with God, I have been renewing my relationship with myself. Who have I become, and how does this person really compare to the individual I am and will become? I have learned to open my eyes, ears and heart more. By doing so, I have come to see the beauty in things around me, including my trials. Is there still work to be done? Absolutely, no doubt. But I am blessed to be able to see and understand things as I am now, as the age of 28.

These past few months have forced me to take a step back, stop and correct myself. There is soooo much more in store for me, and I refuse to miss out on it all simply because I didn't take the time to check myself.

Is there any checking that you need to do?

'Eat, Pray, Love' The Trailer (in theaters August 13th!)

Friday, December 11, 2009

Dance Like Nobody Is Watching

Dance Like Nobody Is Watching
by Crystal Boyd

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we are frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are. After that we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with. We will certainly be happy when they are out of that stage. We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire.

The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when?

Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway. Alfred D Souza said, "For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have. And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time ... and remember that time waits for no one...

So stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave the house, until you start work, until you retire, until you get married, until you get divorced, until Friday night, until Sunday morning, until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter, until you are off welfare, until the first or fifteenth, until your song comes on, until you've had a drink, until you've sobered up, until you die, until you are born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy...

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Wow!! It has been forever, lol

Been a while since I have posted, and A LOT has happened in that time. But the greatest thing is that I am still progressing and growing!! Thank God for that!

Will definitely start to pick up my progress with blogging ASAP! Hope all is well with everyone and you are enjoying your holiday season thus far!!!

Happy Holidays!!



Thursday, September 17, 2009

Test Your Creativity....................

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Monday, September 14, 2009

"You have not, because you ask not"

James 4: 1 - 3
1 What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? 2 You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. 3 When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.

Why is this such a hard lesson to learn? For me the problem is not that I ask with personal intentions, it is just that I don't ask. Anyone for anything! Why is it so difficult for me to open my mouth when I need assistance/guidance, but yet I will break my back helping someone else and never think anything about it?

The only explanation I can think of is mainly pride. But in addition to that it is something greater.

I look back to my younger days when I was fearless and never met a stranger. I thought nothing of going up to someone and picking their brains, getting advice, etc. I was a networking fool, not even realizing that I was really networking. But now, its a different story.

There is literally a glass wall between myself and the people that I most can, should and want to connect with. But how did that wall get there, and most importantly how can I break it?

I have a feeling now that reaching out to people is like pestering and bothering them, and I have a hard time getting around that. This comes from various sources and situations that I have had to deal with these past few years, but I am beyond ready to get over it.

This is my intervention, my 'AA' so to speak on 'breaking the shell.' Can anyone help and give sound advice?

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Shedding the 'Tough Skin'

You know whenever something or someone hurts you, or when someone's words cut through like a knife? Why is it that people suggest that you should get tougher skin? Of course it is a metaphor for blocking out that pain and anger that person may have caused. But to me, now in my adult age, I see it as a slight cop out.

Of course we should not let some one's OPINION alter how we feel or think of ourselves, or any situation we may be associated with, because that is just what it is.....OPINION! So many people throw their opinions out like facts they have retrieved from a world history book and expect you to accept it. Something that I am grateful for is having the ability to accept people expressing their opinions, and leaving it just as that... their opinions. I have gotten to the point where I do not even dispute their thoughts, because that is just wasted energy in most cases.

When someone expresses their opinions that are completely off the wall and irrelevant, I just smile now and keep on moving (unless of course I am being degraded, that's a completely different topic). Why? Not because I have 'tougher skin,' but because I have greater faith. I have come to realize, as many others, that people will put other people down to make themselves look greater that what they really are. It is called their ego. The ego can be a deadly thing, and can cause a downhill spiral in a heartbeat.

Just because you have experienced certain situations, are a certain age, have a 'high' position, drive a certain car or live in a particular neighborhood doesn't make you nor your opinions any greater than anyone else. It just means that you are blessed and highly favored. Too many choose to confuse the two......

So why waste my valuable time trying to check someone else's ego, when God can do it better than any attempt I may possibly put forth? My smile is just a reminder to me of the faith that I have, and the realization that God will check that individual's ego.

You are never too old, rich or important to be taught valuable lessons in life. Life is simply ongoing lessons we have yet to learn. It is important to check one's ego daily so you don't get out of hand, but some people will never learn.

So I am shedding that 'tough skin' act, because my faith is much stronger and tougher to block others' insecurities from invading my space!

The Victory of Success......

'The victory of success is half won when one gains the habit of setting goals and achieving them. Even the most tedious chore will become endurable as you parade through each day convinced that every task, no matter how menial or boring, brings you closer to fulfilling your dreams.'